Dying a little everyday

I know this is one of the sad moment in my life. Like everyone else, everyone got a battle to deal with. Mine feel like I'm at the losing side...... Yes, I well aware how God work. Usually put us in trouble which we can usually handle (though it doesn't feel that way), and then work it miracle at the last minute (though his last minute is actually just in time). This is just how He does thing, Reason of it, it depend but I can tell you this, it always relate back to faith.

The thing is, is easy to have faith in Him when we are in a good situation, He is pleased when we does that. But here a not so easy part, it never easy to have faith in Him when our situation is rotting, but if one is able to pull it through mean pleasing Him a million more time.

Of course, this is happening to me now...... Of all the night, tonight, right now as I writing this, I feeling worst than ever. Just a moment ago I felt like giving up, asking God just to take me away right there and then. But then, this sentence came by, "Don't ever give up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." That help me though I wasn't feeling any better, I couldn't even sleep as this feeling was really bugging me.

Obviously, God not showing the answer to all these thing now. I just have to be patient with all these, knowing God will help me and pull me out of this in time. Oh Lord, please have mercy on this soul.