1st day of 2012

What an awesome start to the new year, Sunday, the 1st of January!! But the truth is, God was about to show me otherwise. As always went to church and they were preaching about the always rejoice in Lord no matter what the situation is and God test may always get harder but it will always match your capability and "trusting God" really count only when you can still say "I still trust you, Lord" even in the darkest moment of your life. Of course, thing were going well until after church...

God shown me the one thing that I thought I was good at were actually not good at all yet. It was patience. See, this is what God love to do, the moment you think you are very good at something and starting to feel awesome at it, He can instantly prove you wrong.

That day, I got a fight into my family and thing were very, very nasty. It wasn't cool to start the 1st day of 2012 like this. It lasted for a long time...... Those moment were very cold, there was a part of time I just stop believing and my mood were as down as minus. On the night itself, I was in my room, still in bad mood, facebooking. I suddenly remembered Pastor Kenneth teaching but my mood was still very bad, I did it anyway. Turn to my phone, even though my favourite music was playing half way(it usually impossible for me stop halfway), but I just stop the music, the started playing planetshaker song. It was during those moment, everything felt right again, there were tear in my eye and I dun even noe why..... It was comfortable. After all those, my mood wasn't bad anymore, i wasn't pissed with what happened anymore and moreover, guilt were starting to fill in adi. As I went back to bed (as it was very late adi), I send sms to their phone apologizing them.

The next day, everything went back to normal, they send back an "apologize accepted" message which make my day. Then during that time, something popped up in my mind, it was "It doesn't matter how the day start your new year, but it matter how you start your new year."

Thank you, Jesus Lord!!!