The similar miracle (K.K.)

Mount Kinabalu, maybe the tallest mountain in South East Asia but certainly not a tough mountain :)

The trip to the top was during August with my family (my mum din follow us to the top though), of course was happy get to go up there. The adventure awaits (so was some not-so-bad-but-still-bad thing)

The trip started early in the morning, after registering and all, it started to rain, lightly, but of course, it did not stop us since it was small. So the climb begin. Through almost of halfway to the mountain  it started...

My father cramp his leg, and we didn't have a portal service, so me and my bro help carry my dad bag up and the whole trip turn from around 2 hours to a 4 hours trip, during this part, I don't expect my father to reach main checkpoint. Then I remember....

(Back when I was coming home from Aussie on plane, there was a guy (SOME) which tell me lots of stuff, and one of them were his Mt. K.K. trip. He told his story as they were climbing, it was raining, then his friend leg cramped halfway through the mountain. Though all of them reach the main checkpoint but the it didn't stop there.

They were told that the previous group didn't make it to the top as the rain make the climb impossible, moreover, usually in those weather, it always misty, making the view very misty, adding up to that, their friend injury it not getting any better even after all those heat rub. He prayed hardly through the night, for his friend and the weather, then head to bed.

The next day, the rain stopped, and the best part, his friend got better and they were able to make it to the top, not only that, at the top, the view of mount K.K. during his trip was also a miracle as the weather became so clear even the guide was in disbelief! It really was a miracle, he said)

Back to the present, all I can do was pray and help my father out and we did make it to the main checkpoint but so it was, I wasn't actually going by my strength but Jesus was helping me all along, as we reaches the place, right at the moment, I "died", I could hardly walk and my leg was painful, not only that, my younger brother was about to get altitude sickness and thing were just going from bad to worse, fear of the worst that we might have to cancel the trip.

Even so, there I was, might be the same place with SOME, thanking God for able to make it at the place and  it also stopped raining that night, but was also praying for my family and so of the weather also, then I went to bed (10pm).

2am, my leg weren't feeling at it best, my brother was getting better. Though, my father decided not to go further up. So left the 3 of us, climbing... It was fun but we stopped a lot cause my leg can feel the "crampness". I thought I might not make it at all, but praying does help, and we manage to reach.... Then there it was, at the top, the view may not be the clearest as it was cloudy on one side, but it was as clear as the eye can see on the other side, it was a very similar miracle to SOME!!

It was the best trip, not only my father make this trip possible for us, God was with us at that time too. Thank you, Jesus, Thank you too, Dad!

Forgiving

(This post is not for offending people and if what I about to say offended you, sorry if it do so...)

Everyone, once in a while will get offended, it maybe small thing and it maybe a huge thing and many people see it differently. Some can be forgiven very easily, but some are not.

I was (in my own opinion) being offended by someone (a friend of mine) quite deeply, and as all of us know, thing get better when you can let bygone be bygone... But the thing is, this was something I find it ultimately hard to forgive. Everytime I see him in person, I hated him (yes, even though his my friend) so much that I din even want to talk to him.

After a few months, I was desperate for change as I was getting very moody all the time and I just didn't like what I living with. I wanted to let go of this old problem, not matter how much time I try forgiving him, it really feel like the devil winning this one, a really close victory for him though. I asked for help for a friend in a land down under (Aussie), and thank God for him, really thank God. It was this sentence that somehow the answer to all this:

"pray and walk on the Holy Spirit to guide you and to give you the ability to forgive the person."

One reading that, I realized that I was trying to forgive that person by my own strength. Giving up to God, I pray for it. Waiting for answer, it was still difficult forgiving him. Until I read a message (I forgot where it came from though.....), at time of life, we have to release something we feel very important to us to God.

I know this is not relating to one another to many of you all, but as I was trying to chase a girl (but obviously failed horribly, LOL), it actually fuel that hatred (one reason of it is cause there was a rumor that he was also chasing her...). But as much I like her, God wanted it to be off (for a moment(He knew it was these thing that making forgiving people impossible)). (Of couse with some confirmation along the way, I give that up just like that. But what was very very surprising to me was.... I have easily forgave the person, seriously easy!!! (Even now, I don't mind hanging out with him the whole day!!)

Forgiving people cant be very very tough at time (even if he/she didn't ask for forgiveness, just forgive, it can really change your life just like that), but all I wanna say is (just like what my friend told me) : "pray and walk on the Holy Spirit to guide you and to give you the ability to forgive the person."

And more importantly, listen to what God need you to do if you really need to forgive that certain person. My maybe releasing something very important is the answer to my problem, but it could be different for other case, just listen to God!! God bless you!!

RE:UNION

RE:UNION has pass and it was one of the best event. There was so many great thing happening together with so many great message from so many speaker.

In the midst of all these great thing happening, my relationship with my parent, especially with my father wasn't great, though, ever since the "Aussie event", I wanted to fix this relationship, but failed.... I always envy other who have such good relationship with their parent.

During the 3rd morning day of RE:UNION, there was an empty feeling from nowhere, I dun noe why and I was hopping for an answer for the last day of the conference. As always, the conference was awesome, enjoying myself (haven't found any answer yet though...), then it happen... at the ending part of the conference, during the last worshiping section, it came...

Though it was not a voice, it came as a word popping out, 1 by 1, and it form these: "If you want a good relationship with ur family, tonight, it time for you to ask for forgiveness and say thank to your family." (Yes, I remember I did this before, but it was through a phone and doing thing through a phone is always very easy... Doing it literally is a complete different story...) Of course, I though it was just my imagination, but it kept on appearing.

After a few time trying to ignore, I gave in and told God this: If I going to do this, I need very inch of your strength..., God also did say that both your parent will come to fetch you instead of one of them. As I was asking for the strength, another sentence pop up and it wasn't the thing I wanted to hear... :Tonight, before you say anything to your parent, your father is going to offense you one time... sien liao, lol, but anyhow I still ask for the strength to do so even if it really does happen.

After that, as the conference ended and the bus was heading back to Summit, I called my parent to fetch me from Summit and guess what... the both of them were inside the car... but this was just the start, half way through the journey, my father really did offend me for something not very major and it nearly make me dun feel like saying it anymore, but then again, 5 seconds later, somehow this became a proof that those moment in RE:UNION where those sentences "mysteriously" pop-up were very real..... Of course, after we reach home and my father put into park gear, I just let it out without bothering how awkward it may sound.... yes, it sounded very awkward even when I was saying out to them, but thank God for that enough strength for that moment even after that offenses...... Nowaday, slowly, but surely, my relationship with my parent is getting better, thank God for everything!

Fasting and Prayer 4

And this is the end of the U-Turn program, but it doesn't mean life will go back to how it is. How God has bleesed me with these 3 weeks have been very amazing and there were many thing I learned and one of them is don't stop hopping even though everything is going against you! Thank God!!

I still remember when the U-Turn program 1st started, I thought I would have to skip all the crazy activity like rock climbing, jogging or futsal (cuz of the half-day fast). But God did remind me, don't worry about all those, just continue your lifestyle as usual. Initially, it was tough, I feel like compromising the program but God help me such that I keep to what I will do. Then slowly, God strengthen this body that I was able to rock climb 4 times, jog and futsal in a week during the time of fasting.

That other great thing was relating to university work. God was good, during the 3 weeks fasting and praying, somehow, all 4 subject just don't feel like giving out assignment (which actually there quite a lot), even if the assignment was out, but the due date was a very long one, and one subject even postpone an exam next 3 weeks after the U-Turn program. Yes, one can say, it as if God wanted me to focus on Him as much as possible during the program. Though this may sound very bad, but during the last week of the program, all the assignment came out, literally everything. But the truth is, the assignment could have come out way earlier and I would lost my sense during the U-Turn program, thank God!!

Oh yeah, there was an assignment that was not easy at all, there was seriously nothing I can think off even though spending so much time in this (this happened before the program), then this program start, and even though I spend less time on this assignment already, but God gave so many idea after idea, that I have to change my calculation so many times (it is heard that even with our old calculation, it would still be more or less correct). Calculation which I thought I couldn't do it at all, I have just finished them (and also thank to my team member who always been helping me)!! (Well, for now) Even the other assignment which I had no clue at all (literally none), now with God wisdom, all the assignment seem do-able adi!!

As the program come to the closed, I glad I was able to join the program, God really does work in mysterious ways!! All praise goes to Lord!!

Fasting and Prayer 3

Tomorrow will be the last day of the U-Turn program and it will be a Good Friday too. Although part of me cant wait to get back to eating lunch again, spamming on facebook wall, laughing on 9gag and defense the ancient with my friend, but these 3 weeks have been an awesome week, and no, even on the 3rd weeks, I almost wanted to give up the program...... There were many awesome thing happening and I get to know the "Trinity" better. (I always thought the Holy Spirit dun really help much, sorry......), the other thing I know is even if everyone say the same thing or do the same thing, it does not mean doing differently will not work. "Don't copy the behaviour and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect." Roman 12:2

The great new is my grandpa got released out of the hospital, thank God for that!!

Fasting and Prayer 2

Halfway across the U-Turn program with 1 and half more week to go, thing weren't easy as I thought. Of course, the first few days was simple and felt like this could go on forever..... how wrong I am. Till today, temptation is a hundred more times tempting than the 1st few days. Even today, walking past cafeteria is so tough.......

Even so, there were a lot of interesting happen which actually never happened before in my life. Most of them is just better to tell u personally..... But as I take this time to get closer with God, He show me some of my bad habit that I don't consider it bad actually, then He remind me this, as much as I like being myself plus ignoring what other think of me, but there are some thing just gotta go if you really want change in your life. Although it sounded easy but habit are habit, though they are some are tough like nobody business, but I know I will get through all this with the help of Him.

The following story won't be a good thing..... It was this afternoon, when I was somewhere in Monash, just being with God. A call came, and it wasn't a good one. My mum tone wasn't good too, there was a feeling of uneasy.... Ah gong(grandpa) was admitted to hospital..... That moment, my heart fell. It was that same time when I was reading a story book "Teen Miracles" where it reminded me sometime thing happen just to glorify God name even though you may not see it with our human eye.

Since it was rare for Ah gong to to hospital, the only time he goes was just regular checkup (if I remember correctly). Luckily I was alone that time, I cant help but pray and cry. Even though initially, I wasn't close with him but long story short. he was part of the reason of what happened to me during 3rd-4th September 2011 that changes so much in my life. I dun noe what will happen in the end, but I do noe there always a reason for everything to happen, it just some of them cant be seen with our naked eye.

As much as temptation is getting stronger each day with one of the worst news now. There is always hope, just gotta have faith.

Thank God!!

Fasting and Prayer

Nothing was ringing through my mind when I 1st heard about these words, I thought I wouldn't have to do it at all...... Until, Friday, 16th March, it was my 1st time attending HOME (Act church) (another secret on this days was I almost got into a bad car accident, Thank God for letting me go for He know I got HOME to go to :) ). There I was, of course always the quiet one and always needed someone to start a conversation, well, Thank God, always being so good to me. The welcome was very the warm and it really remind me of "Urban Life" back in OZ.

As the HOME goes on, they started talking about fasting and praying because Acts church is now having an event known as "U-turn" which will start the next day and goes on for the next 21 days. As noob as I am :), I did not fully understand the meaning, but then there was an urge to do it. Knowing my limit, I agreed to do just a "partial-meal" fast which fast from 7am-7pm (btw, the timing does not necessary have to be 7am-7pm). Of course, the next day, I manage to do it but something did not actually felt quite right.

It was until the next Sunday morning when I finally understand the meaning of fasting and praying, thank to the awesome speaker in Acts church!! It is all about removing distraction in life that have been blocking God, just to get closer to God. This is went I finally decided to cross that limit of mine, and decided to fast everything that had been distracting me from God. As much as I still unsure of what lies ahead in the future and how much I actually capable of doing this, I guess this is one of those time to get as close as I can get with God :)

Arigato Gozaimasu, Lord!!!

Dying a little everyday

I know this is one of the sad moment in my life. Like everyone else, everyone got a battle to deal with. Mine feel like I'm at the losing side...... Yes, I well aware how God work. Usually put us in trouble which we can usually handle (though it doesn't feel that way), and then work it miracle at the last minute (though his last minute is actually just in time). This is just how He does thing, Reason of it, it depend but I can tell you this, it always relate back to faith.

The thing is, is easy to have faith in Him when we are in a good situation, He is pleased when we does that. But here a not so easy part, it never easy to have faith in Him when our situation is rotting, but if one is able to pull it through mean pleasing Him a million more time.

Of course, this is happening to me now...... Of all the night, tonight, right now as I writing this, I feeling worst than ever. Just a moment ago I felt like giving up, asking God just to take me away right there and then. But then, this sentence came by, "Don't ever give up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." That help me though I wasn't feeling any better, I couldn't even sleep as this feeling was really bugging me.

Obviously, God not showing the answer to all these thing now. I just have to be patient with all these, knowing God will help me and pull me out of this in time. Oh Lord, please have mercy on this soul.

1st day of 2012

What an awesome start to the new year, Sunday, the 1st of January!! But the truth is, God was about to show me otherwise. As always went to church and they were preaching about the always rejoice in Lord no matter what the situation is and God test may always get harder but it will always match your capability and "trusting God" really count only when you can still say "I still trust you, Lord" even in the darkest moment of your life. Of course, thing were going well until after church...

God shown me the one thing that I thought I was good at were actually not good at all yet. It was patience. See, this is what God love to do, the moment you think you are very good at something and starting to feel awesome at it, He can instantly prove you wrong.

That day, I got a fight into my family and thing were very, very nasty. It wasn't cool to start the 1st day of 2012 like this. It lasted for a long time...... Those moment were very cold, there was a part of time I just stop believing and my mood were as down as minus. On the night itself, I was in my room, still in bad mood, facebooking. I suddenly remembered Pastor Kenneth teaching but my mood was still very bad, I did it anyway. Turn to my phone, even though my favourite music was playing half way(it usually impossible for me stop halfway), but I just stop the music, the started playing planetshaker song. It was during those moment, everything felt right again, there were tear in my eye and I dun even noe why..... It was comfortable. After all those, my mood wasn't bad anymore, i wasn't pissed with what happened anymore and moreover, guilt were starting to fill in adi. As I went back to bed (as it was very late adi), I send sms to their phone apologizing them.

The next day, everything went back to normal, they send back an "apologize accepted" message which make my day. Then during that time, something popped up in my mind, it was "It doesn't matter how the day start your new year, but it matter how you start your new year."

Thank you, Jesus Lord!!!