Renew

It been 4 days since that faithful day(haha, sound it like a long time ago). Anyway, just like the title say, this time I going to do it unlike the previous life. What am i talking about? Well, it just the walk of life together with Lord and Jesus. And yes, I know I was a Christian the last time, but to be honest with you, I did not fully have trust in HIM and always having doubts and except in life, never truly believe in HIS plan and always been "dumping" HIM for something more important.

It was during a church camp at Phillip Island, Australia, I still remember the first time I when to camp, I was wondering why the heck did I come here again? It does not look like I going to enjoy it at all, and like always, I was blaming myself for doing such so and accepting to come here in the first place.......

Of course, I just go and follow with a million hesitation. It was kinda like 'bla bla bla' and 'heard before' situation, then on Friday night, while out alone in the dark, I saw a shooting star, suddenly I felt so empty and my there was a feeling very uncomfortable, it was then I make a wish, half believing in God while having doubt, I wish for a miracle..... Then it was on Saturday night, it was nothing like I never felt before. Like I say, previously in my life, there was many except, there was so many 'habit' I just dun want to get rid off and it those kind of 'habit' that been destroying my life. But on that night itself, the feeling was more than word can say..... Even now, it still there...... During the alter call (it was time to get rid of those 'habit' and the other except in life). I lost control of my body and when up which I thought I won't do it...... While up in front, I felt so weak, so weak till I thought I going to 'pengsan' right on the spot.... But after going through it, I felt so much lighter...... There was an instantaneously disappearance of all the burden and worry.... And there was the 'tunnel of prayer' or so (sorry, I known for poor memory -.- )... After going through it, the feeling was even so 'pure', purer than anything else, love stronger than anyone I have fallen with, after that, I sat down, trying to interpret this feeling that I dun even know what it is, while so, there was guy who randomly come up to me, comforting me, though it make that unknown feeling even stronger, but thank to him, I felt more relax...... It was a night of remembrance.

On Sunday, we head back to "Planetshaker" church. It was during this time, I want to walk with HIM again, this time with no doubt and all the way to the end. Once I got back home, I immediately threw away all that "thing" that destroyed my life(yes, I did bring those over from Malaysia), never thought I would truly do this......

Thank you for the reminder, PlanetUNI and Planetshaker!!

And those who wandering what the "habit" and "thing" are.... is something relating to do with sex.... typical isn't it.....