Those 5 incredible month

I can still remember the first day at KLIA as I and other friend were boarding the flight to Melbourne till the very end of the journey where I united with my parent. The whole trip was like a dream.... A very, very sweet dream....

One of the most awesome moment were during 3rd-4th of September, this is where everything

truly started. Started doing thing I thought I couldn't do, always assuming all those were only for

crazy ppl. But of course, God is there all the time. Even now in Malaysia, I just wanted to do all

those even though the weather here is hot and HOT.... As much as I know it, I suddenly interested

in thing I used to hate and out of nowhere and I not so addicted to online games anymore......

Unlike the last time, I would always search for those "stuff" or play online game the whole day when

I just averagely bored. Now, all I can think is my friend, family and God even though I extremely

bored.

Haha, oh well, much to say, but lazy to type. All I can type is, this is wat God had done in my

life!! Arigato yo!!!

Miracle, by Lord

This happen after a marathon (actually before that), off course the running was cool, but wat come after that was something I thought I wouldn't have gone through. Since there were only three of us, I started noticing him and her were ignoring each other. As she was talking to me non-stop instead of him, I knew something wasn't right.... and too make thing even more obvious, he was regretting and will always be sitting at one corner, like how my old self would do. Somehow, I felt his pain, that pain that ate and destroyed me before this, but din noe wat happen... Till my fren told me that something happened...... It was this moment, I was very disturbed, yet felt so powerless cuz I din noe wat to do.....

That night, every night, I would continue to pray to Lord, knowing this hell will end somehow. Did talk with him, but he felt so hopeless when we talking about it.... It also make me feeling very hopeless, I wanted to cry. Somehow, I juz dun noe how, I know God will do something about it. The next day, I did something I thought I wouldn't such thing, I swallowed all that bitter, I was expecting bad thing to happen, like she would hate me as she hate him.... But the pain he was suffering, I know that pain...... Then I try talking to her, I was even surprised she replied me in the first place.

After the talk, I knew I did all I can do help him adi while trusting the rest to Lord. Though, he say they have broke up, I din want to believe, I knew this wasn't true, I din tell anyone cuz I know this wasn't true, that night I cry out for Lord, I ignore all possibility and focuz on that problem itself. Then HE did it!! FINALLY!!! It was during her birthday, at night, they finally make up and they are together again now!! Even until now, I am freaking happy, is as if I can just throw a huge party!! And to make thing even better, God gave me a bonus! HE went and touch their heart!! Thank you, LORD!!! You have always been there for me!!!

One of the best Sunday

It was 9/10/11, and it was my first 10km marathon and I couldn't have done it without God. This is wat happen: I was never a runner when I first came here, running 1km is adi very painful for me. When my friend first introduced me the event "Melbourne Marathon". I was never interested in it..... until a few of my friend wanted to join. Underestimated 10km, I joined the 10km under 55min event. That until I started training in gym initially, each time I trained, each time I got more frustrated and there was one day I train till my killed my leg...... I couldn't run for 5 days until that "miracle" happen, (http://calvininsj.blogspot.com/2011/09/book.html)

Ever since, the training was getting better and so it the result as He help me on my way. All were good until the marathon day itself.... The morning I woke up, I was having a very bad cramp/stitch near my stomach area and to make thing to worst, we have to walk from out fren place(we overnight in city before the day of marathon) to MCG cause there was no transport. My cramp was kinda bad even when I was at the starting line where it about to start. I almost wanted to give up my goal of finishing under 55minutes, but God came again.... As the whistle started, I started jogging, praying my cramp won't kill me... Jogging and jogging, I continuously praying and also did pray for all my other fren. 1km and my cramp was surprisingly disappearing, and I was able to finish the whole marathon without stopping for walk under 54minutes! Thank for running with me Jesus!!

After attending church, went for lunch and home to change my cloth, went to Camberwell to celebrate friend birthday. Of course, the whole dinner was fun and I was expecting everyone to remember that there was 3 friends birthday that were very closed with each other and not to remember mine, I din want anyone to remember and celebrate my birthday anyway for a good reason. The dinner was awesome cause it was Sofia, haha. Not only that, I gave 20 dollar during the church offering and I knowing the dinner going to cost me another 15dollar, leaving almost 5 dollar for the whole week to survive. Anyway, I din care as long as I see my friend happy...... Unfortunely, someone found out about my birthday...... After we singing birthday song to our fellow friend, they all sang one more time, wandering why, I went along...... Until the name part of the song...... I was shocked and nothing to say...... the whole dinner, all I could do is sit there quietly, I din even want them to belanja me at least, but they rejected my money anyway.... When I heard the amout it cost, I was feeling quite guilty... at least that night I din take a lot haha!! And like always, I dun expect present... but that night all four of us receive present from all of our awesome friend. And that night, it was one of the best present I ever received for a long time... Thank you, Lord! You have been making my life better and better even when all was wrong!! Thank You!!

Temptation

Like everyone else, after getting rid of their old habit, temptation is always as the devil only want you to fail... During sleeping nicely, I was always been disturbed by dream that relate back to my old habit, of course, the feeling of going back to the old habit was there but I din want to. It was until one night, it was one of the longest "bad" dream, and I almost fall back into that bad habit... Jesus saved me, my whole "bad" dream was instanteounsly destroy. It happen few days ago adi, and yet I can never forget that moment. Thank you, Lord!

What really happened?

It started during my secondary school, right on Form 4, my result were deterioting badly, I didn't care. I almost got last in class in the last class of the pure science class in whole pure science form 4. During form 5, I was lucky to have a Christian friend where he never give up in asking me to his christian fellowship. Though I cant really remember the detail much, but it was during this time where I truly believe in God, and it was from there onward I wanted to stop cursing and simply releasing my temper at anyone I don't like and this does include my parent. (yes, I was a very hot-tempered person during form 4 with a 24/7 cursing word) I also have no self-confident and at time I did feel like "disappearing" from this world.

Then, I started to realize what I had done in my life and wanted to change everything. It was also during this time, surprisingly I got 2nd position in my class(I know it actually nothing much, but for people like me, I thought this only happen in dream) and my "SPM" actually did not bad, 7A out of 11. Then entering pre-u, SAM, yeah, I was improving, everything went quite smooth except the "habit" was getting worst, it was eating my life slowly. SAM result was good, it was more than enough to enter monash uni. Happy of course, knowing Lord will guide me all the way.

But I was foolish, I thought I can handle everything myself, I thought too myself, I don't need a Christian friend. I can go solo on this. Then, somewhere went wrong...... I started losing my self-confident, hatred was growing again, my "old" altitude was coming back again. As bad as it gone, I started to kinda hate anyone who "holy". I never really attend church, I started ignoring all my Christian friend, but worst of all, my best friend who wanted to learn more about Jesus and Lord, I started to discourage him from all this thing...... Then the feeling of wanting to "disappear" from this world started creeping in again. Even right after I come to Australia, I always hated myself and doubting God non-stop...... It was then, my friend introduce me to his church camp, there went something happened------------- http://calvininsj.blogspot.com/2011/09/renew.html

It was then I started looking at life differently in a brighter view. Thank you, Lord Jesus!!

Devil and God

This happen very long ago, if I not mistaken, it happen when I 18 years old where I still strongly believe in God. Two days before the real event happened, my friend, who is a Buddhist was being "kacau" by some evil spirit for quite a long period(more than one day, I guess). His parent then bring him to the temple to cure him, and it did.

Then it happened to me, I dun't know how much his event relate to mine, but I guess it was the same "thing". It started when I was sleeping, suddenly I was abruptly awaken by someone voice, the moment I heard it, I knew it was God and it was very clear and I can still remember it main content, "Tonight, the devil is going to disturb 3 times, but I will protect you!" After listening to it, I cover myself with my blanket and waited for the worst.

Then when I thought it was not going to happen, the door open, then I hear my mum voice! I knew something was not right because who mum is evil enough to scare their children late at night...... Under my blanket, I started praying! Then the voice stop, that must be the 1st attack, I think to myself. The second attack was when the "thing" started jumping on me, trying to wake me up, as much as I want to scream, I continuing praying to Lord, knowing everything will go well!!

Then it stop! I guess that was thee 2nd attack. Then it was quiet for a while...... Finally, the 3rd attack, as much as it sound very weird, here how it gone. The "thing" attacked me just like it did on the 2nd attack, as I was praying, suddenly there was a portal, it started sucking the "thing" into it. As it try to grab me together, I give one last kick to it, there when I saw the "thing", the image was blurry though. After the "thing" let go, the portal closed, everything went back to normal as if it was a dream. Exhausted, I went back to sleep.

The next morning, I woke up and the first thing I remember was the incident last night, although the whole thing sounded like a dream, but it felt as real as reality.

Thank you, God and Jesus for that night, I know I would not be able to survive without Your help.

The Book

It started on Monday night, I was really regretting that I did not bring my bible...... I was

thinking to myself, tomorrow I shall go to city and find one, then again, I just remember it was week 7, there was lab till 6pm...... Thinking I wont be able to do so, I went online to check which lab I was in, I thought my eye were deceiving me, nevertheless, I knew what to do already.

Then it was Tuesday, my class ended at 2pm but left for city at 4pm to take advantages of the 2 hours ticket, hence, it only expire at 7pm. Reach city 4.30pm(cause it was an express train, thank God), well, here the irony, I did not even check where and which shop sell bible before I came here...... I just came to city as if I lost my control of my body..... Anyway, I started hunting for the Book. Search up and down, entering every bookshop I see, left and right, Melbourne central and QV mall, then it was 5.45pm. "Needed to reach back Melbourne Central before 6.20pm", thinking to myself. Thus, I continue hunting. (Before this, before even coming to city, my leg were already hurting me cause of the over-training myself at gym last Thursday) I walk and walk, passing through Melbourne Central, Flinder Street and Southern Cross... Then reaches at Flagstaff garden, I couldn't walk already and yet I got no luck.

At Flagstaff garden, it was already 6.30pm, I knew I couldn't reach back to Huntingdale in time before my 2 hours ticket expired. Exhausted, I sat down at the garden, then, I remember a phone number, which I receive from Planetshaker on Monday. (The phone call was relating to topic about being why I did I choose this "path") Hesitated for a long time and was really scared of the answer I will get, I send a message about where to get a bible, then I headed home quite disappointing. While heading home, help did arrive and this time I knew where to get the "Book" and at least, God was there to comfort me as I call my friend and wanted to ask where was the restaurant he was speaking off (Sue Delight). It was just nice, that both him and my other friend was also planning to eat there. Once reaches home, I check google map to find the nearest shop(Koorong) that sell the Book I needed, it actually 9.1km cause I did not use the real address.

Then on Wednesday, while I was doing my tutorial, suddenly my phone rang, it was another call from Planetshaker, it was nearly identical(but it was not the same). Then the same question I receive, "Do you have any prayer request?" Since I have been saying no for three time already (it was not on the same call, but time before this) and this is the fourth time, with no control, I told her my left leg was killing me since the past few days, it was then and there, the pain disappear like magic, thank God, it was another miracle...... And it was on this time, I decided to jog to Koorong and yes I know I could have take a bus there, but He wanted me to jog and so I do.

It was 4.45pm, I started jogging. It was not even 4.55pm and the pain from my leg came back. 5pm, the pain stop me from jogging, and I haven even reach pinewood (From pinewood, it only 1/4 of the way). Thought of giving up and turning around, suddenly, God told me, trust me and continue your journey. So I went on, passing through pinewood, the PAIN was annoying!! Praying, I walk on. Did saw a few chair nearby to seat by, I ignore them and walk on. There are time I continue to jog even though it kill me leg cause it was getting late and the sun set here earlier compare back in Malaysia. Walking past Syndal station, there 1/3 more to go, I was thinking of just taking a bus up to Vicki street, but I ignore it and I wouldn't know which stop to drop anyway, having faith I continue...... Jogging and walking, past K-mart, half way to go, the pain was still excruciating, every step...... Walk, jog, walk, jog, street after street, shop after shop, house after house. 5.39pm, I was afraid I have walk past the street, afraid of getting lost, nevertheless, continue on knowing everything will work out under His plan. It was 5.49pm, when I saw Vicki street and I found the shop.

Of course the pain was still there, I almost drop dead. Anyway, I enter the shop, and found the Book, bought it. Luckily there was a bus stop nearby, took the bus home, and the bus was going back along the street that I have been trailing. Thinking back, I wouldn't have able to do this without God and Jesus. It was the moment I reach home, that moment when I can finally lie down on my bed where God done the healing again. The moment I got up to cook for dinner, the pain was not there anymore, all I felt is my leg, is as if I have not been jogging at all. Everything was back to normal.

Thank you, God!! Thank you, Jesus!!

Renew

It been 4 days since that faithful day(haha, sound it like a long time ago). Anyway, just like the title say, this time I going to do it unlike the previous life. What am i talking about? Well, it just the walk of life together with Lord and Jesus. And yes, I know I was a Christian the last time, but to be honest with you, I did not fully have trust in HIM and always having doubts and except in life, never truly believe in HIS plan and always been "dumping" HIM for something more important.

It was during a church camp at Phillip Island, Australia, I still remember the first time I when to camp, I was wondering why the heck did I come here again? It does not look like I going to enjoy it at all, and like always, I was blaming myself for doing such so and accepting to come here in the first place.......

Of course, I just go and follow with a million hesitation. It was kinda like 'bla bla bla' and 'heard before' situation, then on Friday night, while out alone in the dark, I saw a shooting star, suddenly I felt so empty and my there was a feeling very uncomfortable, it was then I make a wish, half believing in God while having doubt, I wish for a miracle..... Then it was on Saturday night, it was nothing like I never felt before. Like I say, previously in my life, there was many except, there was so many 'habit' I just dun want to get rid off and it those kind of 'habit' that been destroying my life. But on that night itself, the feeling was more than word can say..... Even now, it still there...... During the alter call (it was time to get rid of those 'habit' and the other except in life). I lost control of my body and when up which I thought I won't do it...... While up in front, I felt so weak, so weak till I thought I going to 'pengsan' right on the spot.... But after going through it, I felt so much lighter...... There was an instantaneously disappearance of all the burden and worry.... And there was the 'tunnel of prayer' or so (sorry, I known for poor memory -.- )... After going through it, the feeling was even so 'pure', purer than anything else, love stronger than anyone I have fallen with, after that, I sat down, trying to interpret this feeling that I dun even know what it is, while so, there was guy who randomly come up to me, comforting me, though it make that unknown feeling even stronger, but thank to him, I felt more relax...... It was a night of remembrance.

On Sunday, we head back to "Planetshaker" church. It was during this time, I want to walk with HIM again, this time with no doubt and all the way to the end. Once I got back home, I immediately threw away all that "thing" that destroyed my life(yes, I did bring those over from Malaysia), never thought I would truly do this......

Thank you for the reminder, PlanetUNI and Planetshaker!!

And those who wandering what the "habit" and "thing" are.... is something relating to do with sex.... typical isn't it.....